Part 1:

You want to know something during that announcement topic? If you guys had paid attention to my "flip flopping" I actually had alot of rage there(I still do) and was sifting everything in with my posts. Which was why I stopped what I was doing in there, even though I didn't know the "why" of it at the time.
Go back and read them starting with my first post. Once you do see it all(and where I was heading), post here to let me know what you seen. I'll give you three a day or so to reply(since I know you all have lives and might not check this all the time), then I'll finish.
-J

Part 2:

The thing of it was I was self-destructing, was going to let it all out and watch my place here burn without caring. Which was why I kept asking people to not post and stay off my side. Had to actually yell at Twiz on TS because of what he was going to do there, then he pops out with that neat post. Had me laughing tbh.

The two ironic parts of me expressing my displeasure at what the new mod's part was doing to us:
You jumped Rengirl in private for her stating her opinions as well. Do you not find that to be...odd?
Me taking the asshole stance over the thing, and the real issue not even being your guys' work.

Server related:
I'm going to make this as plain as I can; my problem is you. Watching all the stupid stuff you do to people around here that has nothing to do with the "greater good", that I had been holding in. PM reading/stealing passwords then using those to take peoples accounts/banning God and everyone because they pissed you off personally/giving this place a crappy name in the eyes of other communities...the list goes on and on does it not? It's not like we haven't gone over this before, but you just do not learn.

If so many of our mods are so willing to jump at Trojans offer of a new server, community, figurehead...then there's a problem(it surprised me at the ones who wanted it, and myself and Rengirl at being so vehement against it).

Personal:
Then during that topic I found out you gave Stew box access after breaking your word with me, it made me tick. I didn't even know why I was so mad until 5:00am the other day. I didn't realize what I was doing/where I was heading in that topic, or the "why".

Don't bother downplaying it like you did the last time, you and I were both in those original conversations. A mans word is his word. Without it we are nothing. Had you of said this in regards to anything really, I would've held you to it.

I've hit my wall with you. I don't even know if I want to bother fixing things between us, on a personal level. You've backstabbed me too much if you recall.

Summary:
You tell me, what should we do? There's a few possible outcomes here:
1. I shut up and deal with it, until whatever happens...which would be #2 or #3 here.
2. I get banned like all the others, and then #3.
3. I walk away and let everything we've all worked for split apart and I start anew. I'm not threatening you guys with this statement(even if I didn't try) it would still make a mess of things and rob what we(community) have as a whole.
4. It all gets fixed. I don't know how though, and I honestly doubt you would even bother trying.

You can do what you may with this speech of mine; ignore it, belittle it, whatever. One of those will be happening.
Am I being unfair to you? Very. Do I care what happens at this time? No.
The ball is in your court.

- Joel